My mom loved gardens. She had a courtyard at her home that had a fountain with dragonflies on it. We had bought her strings of lights that were also dragonflies and I can remember how much she adored them. She found peace in her little courtyard surrounded by her dragonflies and beautiful flowers.
My daughter was 5 and my son was 2 when out of the blue my mom’s legs failed her and she took a serious fall. We had all thought she’d had a heart attack, but they ruled that out. Soon enough we found out that mom had ALS. At the time, my mom was the only one who even knew what ALS was. She was around when Lou Gehrig was diagnosed and said she distinctly remembers thinking, “what a horrible way to die”. After lots of research, her four children knew what this meant. We were losing our mom.
Nothing can prepare you for losing a parent, especially at such a young age. She was only 62 when she passed. She left behind four children who loved her as well as 11 grandkids and one great-grandchild. She was an amazing grandmother and her grandkids were everything to her.
Losing my mom completely changed my perspective on life. Not only did I have a greater understanding of how precious life was; I felt like my mom had handed me a torch. I came to the realization that I could no longer play the role of being a child, but now it was now my turn to truly become the adult.
Today, whenever I see dragonflies, I think of my mom. I think about how peaceful she felt in her courtyard with her dragonfly fountain and lights. It’s fitting to find out that the dragonfly symbolizes change and change in the perspective of self-realization, mental and emotional maturity, and an understanding of the deeper meaning of life.
Here is the bowl that I ended up creating for Janna...